Rebirth of a Fat Girl's Youth Diary

  Gu Xiang woke up from the recliner in the children's clothing store, just like countless quiet afternoons in her memory.

  The ceiling fan above was spinning with a "whooshing" sound, and the hot air was blowing directly onto my head.

  "Are you up?" Mrs. Gu walked over from the opposite store and came in to put the stool she had placed her feet on under the table.

  Gu Xiang sat on the chaise longue, still in a daze.

  Gu's mother pushed her aside and put away the deck chair into the inner room.

  Gu Xiang stood there in a daze.

  She was just at Paris Fashion Week's rehearsal venue yesterday, and tomorrow is the day of the formal show.

  That thing forced the designer to keep saying that her feeling was wrong, making her walk from morning to afternoon and then from afternoon to evening.

  If it weren't for the originally scheduled first-line model suddenly having a car accident, this good opportunity wouldn't have fallen to Gu Xiang.

  But who made her thin, she was the only one in the whole venue who could fit into this XS 0-sized skirt.

  Gu Xiang felt that the opportunity had arrived! She was only 23 years old and already had the chance to be the finale at the Paris show. Then she tripped, her body tilted, and she rolled off the T-stage...

  When I opened my eyes again, I was already here.

  Zhuangzi's morning dream was confused with a butterfly. Was it the butterfly dreaming of becoming Zhuangzi, or Zhuangzi dreaming of becoming a butterfly?

  Gu Xiang was a bit confused...

  Gu's mom saw her standing there silently, thinking she was hungry again and getting out of bed: "Ya Ya, do you want to eat tea leaf eggs? Your Aunt Li said they're selling them outside."

  Gu Xiang stared blankly at a copy of "7th Grade Math (Volume 1)" spread out on the table and said casually, "Eat."

  The aunt then took two coins from the counter and gave them to her: "Go buy it yourself."

  Gu Xiang took the money and walked out of the store, in July, as soon as she came out, she felt like she was going to die from the heat.

  This feels somewhat real.

  Gu Xiang raised her hand and took a look. The flesh on the back of her hand was plump, and there were small dimples at the ends of her knuckles.

  The fingernails were neatly trimmed and rounded, even the fingertips were plump.

  Touching the chin again, there are three layers! It can also be flipped over and played with.

  Her eyes glanced down and saw a negligible chest and a round belly!

  Waaahhh... She can't fit into S-sized clothes anymore!

  What a demonic rebirth!

  She cried and walked back, wiping with her small paws while crying.

  Gu's mother was checking the goods when she saw Gu Xiang crying as she returned and was startled, hurriedly pulling her into the small room in the back where they stored goods.

  "What's wrong? Who bullied you?"

  Gu Xiang cried so hard she was gasping for breath and didn't make a sound.

  Gu's mother was getting a bit anxious, she had been doing small business in the mall for several years and had dealt with all sorts of people, so she had a bit of a temper. At this time, she also raised her voice and said: "You'd better speak up! Are you mute?!"

  Gu Xiang finally held back and choked out: "Mom... mom, it's so hot outside... I want to eat Qiaodan!"

  The aunt was stunned for a moment, then went to the outer counter and took out three more dollars for her: "Take it, be careful when crossing the road."

  Gu Xiang cried so pitifully that her eyes and nose turned red. Gu's mom was both angry and amused, but couldn't bring herself to scold her.

  The cold drink shop is opposite the mall and you have to cross a road.

  The current road is not very wide and can only accommodate two trucks side by side. The vehicles on the road are mainly motorcycles and electric cars.

  There are many trees planted on both sides of the road, which are lush and have a lot of shade. It doesn't look very hot either.

  Gu Xiang chose one strawberry and one chocolate.

  Nowadays, a cute Doraemon is 2.5 yuan each, which is relatively expensive among the ice cream. The cheaper small pudding is only 0.5 yuan each.

  And now there are many more cute heads than later ones.

  Moreover, she hadn't had ice cream for a long time. For a while it was because she didn't have the money, and later it was because she needed to lose weight for work.

  It can be said that she hasn't eaten her fill since high school.

  She first peeled a strawberry and ate it, just turned around to prepare for crossing the road when someone called her.

  She turned around and saw a woman in her thirties, wearing a blue sweater, with yellow-dyed hair tied in a low ponytail, and wearing frameless glasses.

  Gu Xiang had an impression of her, she was her homeroom teacher from 3rd to 6th grade, with the surname Zheng. So she called out obediently: "Teacher good."

  She attended Jiefang Road Primary School on this street when she was in elementary school, and the school is just a few dozen meters away from the cold drink store.

  Mr. Zheng nodded and asked her: "The new semester is about to start, how's your homework going?"

  Gu Xiang suddenly said: "I'm done, now my mom is leading me to preview the first grade math."

  Mr. Zheng's face showed a relieved smile: "Right, the new semester is about to start soon. You know that Hua Lu Middle School has a class division exam? As the top student of our school, don't lose face when you go out!"

  Gu Xiang also smiled and said: "I know."

  Teacher Zheng looked at Gu Xiang and felt that she was a bit different.

  Previously, Gu Xiang was clever and had good grades, but he didn't study hard and relied solely on his intelligence. He often didn't do his homework and would often be distracted in class, chatting with his deskmate.

  Her discipline and self-awareness have been a headache for this head teacher for several years.

  However, Gu Xiang's grades have always been good, usually ranking first or second in the class. This time, he performed exceptionally well and scored the highest in the entire school, a feat that can be counted on one hand in the county.

  But after all, she was still young and couldn't help but feel a little nervous when facing her teacher, her eyes not daring to lift up even once.

  But Gu Xiang in front of her had a calm and peaceful expression, and when talking to her, she was also very calm, just like meeting an acquaintance elder.

  Teacher Zheng thought it was probably because the child had suddenly grown up, or because they would no longer be under her care in the future and were not afraid of her.

  Teacher Zheng didn't have much to say either, just reminded her a few words and even sent her across the road.

  Gu Xiang stuffed the unopened Kit Kat into her hands and ran away in a flash.

  She had only run a few steps when her body started shaking violently, and Gu Xiang felt like she was going to suffocate. Large beads of sweat rolled down her forehead...

  Damn it! It's hard being fat!

  Gu Xiang and Teacher Zheng spoke for a while under the shade of a tree by the side of the road, having just run over, now stopping, already flushed in the face.

  She quickly walked two steps into the store and turned on the electric fan.

  Her mother used a towel under the faucet and wrung it out for her to wipe her face.

  Gu Xiang stuck out his tongue and panted heavily.

  "How come you've been gone for so long?" Mrs. Gu poured her a glass of cold tea and fanned her with a cardboard fan.

  Gu Xiang said: "I just met Teacher Zheng, she was talking to me."

  Her mother took a hard cardboard and hit her on the head, saying: "You child is too unreasonable, why didn't you call Teacher Zheng over to sit down. If it wasn't for Teacher Zheng secretly giving you a white book before the junior high school entrance exam, you wouldn't have done so well."

  Gu Xiang found that she could recall some recent events, so she retorted: "It's not like I was the only one who got it, there were over a dozen people in the class who also got it. They just didn't finish it, but I did."

  The white paper that Gu's mother mentioned is a reference material that Teacher Zheng obtained from the city, which consists of math problems. The difficulty level is higher than general review questions but not as tricky as Olympiad questions. It's more suitable for expansion and improvement.

  Nowadays it's not an era of information explosion, and it's still relatively difficult for them to get good materials from the city.

  Teacher Zheng didn't hand it over until later, and after May 1st, he secretly gave some people a few copies.

  Later, before the junior high school entrance examination, Teacher Zheng asked them to hand in their materials again. Gu Xiang was the last one to hand it in.

  At that time, Teacher Zheng was in the office handing out practice papers. Seeing Gu Xiang hand them over, he casually flipped through them and was shocked: "Gu Xiang, you've finished all of them?"

  Gu Xiang nodded.

  Teacher Zheng flipped through the others' papers, fortunately they were all about as she had expected, and only picked out a few questions to write. Even Tang Lulu, who was usually the most serious, had only written about half of them.

  Gu Xiang saw it from the side and felt especially proud, her back straightened up...

  Teacher Zheng pushed her glasses and asked her: "What time do you sleep at night?"

  "Half past ten, maybe a bit later at eleven."

  Mr. Zheng nodded and said: "That's good, you write quite quickly. Tang Lulu's mother said that she has been going to bed at 12 o'clock since she was in the sixth grade."

  Gu Xiang let out an "oh" and her back slumped slightly.

  Teacher Zheng also said: "You are at an age where you need to grow physically, try not to stay up late and ensure 7-8 hours of sleep every day. However, this is a special period, if you are willing to work hard, the teacher will be very happy!"

  Gu Xiang felt a bit embarrassed, actually before May Day she would go to bed at 8 o'clock and watch two episodes of the Taiwanese TV series "Lavender" before falling asleep. Moreover, last night she was secretly reading a Korean book called "That Guy is Really Handsome", but was discovered by her mother who took the book away.

  Teacher Zheng praised her and then encouraged her a bit.

  Gu Xiang himself had some impression of this matter, and after accepting his current memory, the matter was as if it happened in front of him.

  Her mother listened and felt quite proud, saying: "Right, your teacher Zheng also told me that among the several classes she teaches, only you have finished writing."

  "Right, right."

  Gu's mother hit her with a piece of cardboard again and asked what Teacher Zheng had said.

  Gu Xiang picked out the key points and repeated them briefly.

  After listening, Aunt Gu said: "Your teacher Zheng will take you there and then go to the countryside to teach, when he comes back, it's like he has been gilded."

  Gu Xiang said: "Isn't it? Our grade did well on the exam."

  "Gu's mother glared at her and said: 'Do you understand? Don't follow adults' conversations!'"

  Gu Xiang didn't make a sound.

  The sky is very hot, at 3-4 o'clock, the sun is still very scorching.

  At this time, the Liberation Road shopping mall was still a place where cheap clothes were sold. The price was similar to that of Taobao later on, so the decoration was simple: there was an unroofed atrium in the middle, and on both sides were clothing stores with only a rolling shutter door, without the sophisticated sliding doors of later years. There was no air conditioning, and there were not many people in the mall either.

  Gu Xiang sat under the electric fan, the wind blowing her hair flying this way and that.

  So boring...

  Gu's mother took out a Go board and then two people started playing Five in a Row...

  Although the style is a bit off, Gu Xiang remembers that when she was young, she would indeed play with many things, all of which were taught by her mother.

  Like Go, calculating 24 points, Chinese Chess, Fighting Landlord, Badminton are all taught by Aunt Gu.

  Gu Xiang hasn't played these things for a long time, but now he is still very happy to do so.

  Because she hadn't been with her mother like this for too long, after her mother fell ill and lingered on her sickbed, Gu Xiang's memories of her had always remained at the pale color of her face and her weak and feeble body.

  How long has it been since I've seen a healthy and refreshed mom?

  Gu Xiang felt like crying again.

  Two people played for a while, and Gu Xiang obviously felt that his mother was letting him win.

  For example, if Mrs. Gu had just won a round, then even if Gu Xiang played very badly in the next round, she would still deliberately let Gu Xiang win.

  That's a bit boring.

  Gu's mother also noticed that she was not in the mood and put away the chess pieces: "Why don't you go to your little uncle's place to play computer?"

  Gu's mom has two older brothers. Gu Xiang's big uncle works in a coal mine, and her little uncle works at the Jiefang Road shopping mall, but not in the same district as Gu's mom, it takes about five minutes to walk there.

  Usually, Gu Xiang likes to play computer games and goes there once or twice a day.

  Gu Xiang thought that even going online wasn't much fun now, and her little uncle's computer had a very low configuration, so she could only watch TV dramas and listen to music. Now with these old songs and old TV dramas, she really didn't have any interest.

  Gu Xiang flipped through the reference books on her desk, remembering that she had dropped to the top 15 in her class since junior high school and could only rank among the top 100 in her grade. Her grades when she was promoted from elementary school to junior high were actually among the top ten in her grade, although there was an element of abnormal performance, but at her normal level, she should be able to rank among the top twenty in her grade.

  "Mom, Teacher Zheng said we still have a class division exam when school starts. Should I buy two more test books to practice?"

  Gu's mother sat next to her, checking the accounts, and suddenly looked up at Gu Xiang with a strange expression: "In eighteen years, I've never seen you take the initiative to read a book."

  Gu Xiang rolled her eyes: "Can't you be happy for me when I'm reading a book?"

  Mom Gu said: "You always lose interest in things after three minutes, I bought it for you on this side, and you'll definitely be unhappy to see it fresh for two days."

  Gu Xiang pouted and wasn't very happy.

  Her mother saw it and put down the account book, helping her to brush her bangs behind her ear, saying: "Don't worry about the class division exam, your father called yesterday and said he had already made arrangements. You will definitely be in Class 1."

  Gu Xiang thought it was no wonder that she had no impression of this class division exam at all, probably because her father Gu helped her with it.

  "There's still two months before school starts, otherwise you can go back to your hometown and play for a few days?"

  Gu Xiang's grandparents lived in a small village under the county, which was considered countryside for them.

  She hasn't seen her grandparents for a long time, or rather, not just the two elderly people, she has had little contact with anyone on her mother's side. However, she still remembers many things from the countryside and recalls that there was a small black dog in the east of the village that often bullied her when she was young, but after entering junior high school, they almost never met again.

  Kan Gu Xiang's heart skipped a beat, and her mother continued: "Then I'll take you there tomorrow afternoon."

  "No need, I can go myself." Although Grandma's house is not far away, it requires taking two buses. Gu Xiang is a bit directionally challenged and got lost when she went out to buy candy as a kid, so she became more and more afraid of going out alone. Her mom isn't at ease with it either.

  At this time, Gu Xiang also couldn't persuade her mother to let her go out alone.

  They were talking when a little boy ran over excitedly and said: "Gu Xiang, my mom is calling you to eat ice cream."